WHOLESOME JUNCTION

If you ever find yourself in a dilemma of holding on to someone or letting go despite being hurt everyday, you gotta ask yourself if its really worth eventually or am I only screwing up my self respect and my mental peace? It always hurts to be the one who cares more, to be the one to sacrifice, to be the one who has so much to confront but end up shattering them within oneselves. Having a pure heart in this generation is not easy. People now don't really want the ones who can take stand for themselves, who can just walk out from their lives knowing they are being hurt and holding it for so long, knowing they tried, they tried a lot but couldn't make it. It hurts. It pains the heart. Always remember when you will prioritize your self respect above every other , they will blame you, the society will criticise you because you chose yourself over sacrifices, compromises, over draining your peace for something/someone who did not even deserve a part of your time. Why to put yoursel...

You know, being humans with emotions isn't that easy. Its complicated and ambiguous. It isn't something that is certain. Our emotions are in fact unprecedented when we actually want it to be explicit.  You see, we all have, once in our life experienced a kind of bond with someone where two of us are enthralled into each other, where our day feels vividly incomplete without hearing their voice, without desiring to give them a tight hug, telling, "I am there, always. Everything will be alright".  We don't tell them quite often that " you matter for my heart. Your existence  matters to me, everything concerning you has now become a part of my life". But deep within we realise the same.  But at the same time, strangely, we don't desire to give this exceptional bond, a name. Perhaps the bond is as beautiful as it would be with a "tag". Perhaps the happiness it fills us with would not be desiring a certain "mark". Perhaps we are afraid ...

So hii, this blog post is about the voice of class 12, batch 2020 which has no words to express its suppressed desires. Like every usual 12 batch we also dreamt to live every moment of this last year of our school life. From bunking the boring lectures to having a mini trip to washroom with our friends, from dressing for annual function to eating momos on the way whilst returning, from sitting on the last bench and secretly eating our lunch to being scolded by the teachers for the same. From sliding and running on those corridors to walking in a straight line when we encounter the principal. And of course from dreaming of farewell, bidding those last good byes to our friends with tears to actually not meeting them for entire one year. Our class 12 went nothing but a daydream. How everything we expected from this year of our school life turned out to be a mere piece of condolence. We see everyone sympathising with our current situation, ensuring " Great Things will take place"...

Quite often we see teenagers sacrificing their dreams just because their family did not believe in their dreams, passion, their skill. Lack of family support compels them to pursue something which tends to deviates their basic interest and enthusiasm.  Imagine how tough it would be for a 18 year old to bear the pressure of walking into the path which has no final destination. An individual aiming to become writer is "compelled" to become a doctor, a child wanting to fly high , becoming a pilot is being pushed into "inheriting his father's business" and another child dreaming to work in film industry is told to wakeup daydreaming. Why? Reason? Perhaps expectations. Expectations in a complete different sense here. Our parents had presumed our carrier choices before we are grown up to even have a thought of this term. They expected us to aim something different, different from what we actually want from our life.  Failing to stand out to those expectations tends to...

You know, we all have heard like always, love is a mutual feeling between two individuals. It always involves two of us to fall in love with each other. Believing into this, if a person loves the other without the latter feeling the same, it shouldn't be called  as "love"? Maybe we are far away to understand this psychology. But let me tell you, when you love the person knowing all their flaws, dark sides, past, the way they are in present and still choose to love them without them even knowing, the feeling is surreal. One - sided love is as beautiful as being in a relationship. Imagine carrying feeling for someone which has no one in between. No restrictions, no third person, no priorities, no commitments, no obligations and surprisingly not even the person you love. Its just you and your feelings which gives a sense of purpose to your life. Purpose to love, purpose to feel those emotions that are only yours, you don't want to share with anyone, you don't want to...

That faint clap of lighting, the gust that passes by, that first tiny drop of rain that falls on our face, those covered skies and that blend of mellow fragrance of mud and rain. The first rain of the season is all about the same minute yet beautiful moments. The experience turns out to be even more special with the person you love. Sitting on a couch enthralled into the presence of each other, a mug of coffee and heart only filled of love.  You see how weather suddenly calls us to be a child for one more time. Splashing those little droplets of water does nothing but reminds us of the days when we often used to get those scoldings for being too careless about our wet clothes, when we literally used to wait for this time to sink ourselves into the moment. Remember when we used to return from our school, all wet with mud all over our shirts, helpless. And uncles and aunties staring as if we were the last creatures , all wrapped with dirt on this earth. Craving for a long drive at th...

  You ever took a pause from your life and thought for a while, what am I doing for myself ? Am I happy with the life I am living ? Am I just sacrificing my happiness only for those who take me for granted? What on a single day am I doing for my happiness? We never gave a second thought to this, Right? Because we are too busy expecting others to make us happy, expecting others to make us their priorities. I know there are the days when nothing feels right, when nothing really goes the way we expected or we wanted it to be, there are even those days when people leave the hold of your hands, when your parents starts doubting your potential, when someone is unsure about their feelings towards you, when you are only stuck between you should stand out to others' expectations or take a stand for yourself, your happiness.  We all do fight with such questions in our everyday life. But honestly it is just the consequence of the state of our mind which is just confined to others' percep...